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Death and Enlightenment

2011-12-01T23:20:00.001-08:00

I’ve noticed recently that there exists an interesting shadow within our cultural psyche. For so long I’ve seen many people, myself included, who want desperately to reach dream goals, to become all we believe we are in this world, and something. . . holds us back. It makes no rational sense why we wouldn’t want to do what we are most passionate about, yet we do everything to block our path to that dream goal. I think there are a few reasons for this. One is that sometimes people are so used to negative processes that accomplishing a positive process is unfathomable. This is all unconscious of course. I think we can all agree that no rational, conscious thought goes into self-sabotage. But change in any costume is still frightening and uncomfortable to get through. Pushing ourselves through fear is tough.

I think there is a second reason for fearing the accomplishment of what really matters to us and that is that we might fear what others think, or how they value what we are offering. If others don’t like it, and it is our heart’s desire, where do we go from there? Why remain in the world if we can’t do what we are here to do? That brings us to death, doesn’t it?

There is still another reason for not accomplishing our dream goals. I realized this one when I was sitting in a depth psychology class at school. Depth psychology is all about increasing our consciousness, connecting to our spiritual nature, our true Self, both individually and collectively. I noticed that there exists within the field of depth psychology a shadow. Depth psychology (DP) insists that enlightenment is a momentary experience and cannot be held for any length of time. DP also insists that the spiritual realm is a mystery. Nothing can be named and there is no final answer. I got curious about this. It’s not that I believe there is a final answer, but the fact that we insist absolutely that there can’t be one is intriguing. Then I kept hearing people say, “I must have more to learn or I’d be dead”.

Aha! Isn’t this interesting, I thought. If people are convinced that they will die if they reach enlightenment, and death is feared, why would anyone want to achieve their ultimate dream goal? Why would anyone want to really pursue enlightenment if it means dying when they have so much living left to do? Hmmm. If doing what we most love means that we step into our full power and potential, that we are happy and blissful and, therefore, have nothing else to learn, and that means death, why in the world would we do it? So instead we plod along in misery trying to survive and all because of a belief that may not even be true.

If it is true that we can remain alive while working our passion, fulfilling our heart’s desire and maintaining a state of enlightenment without dying, what does that look like? I think we need to consider this possibility and start envisioning a different belief. I for one will stop saying that I would be dead if I’ve done everything I came here to do.

Time and Economy

2011-11-23T08:11:00.000-08:00

Time. Every person on earth has this commodity in equal amounts. We all get the same 168 hours in each week yet over time we seem to have less and less of it. What’s going on? In their book Time for Life, John Robinson and Geoffrey Godbey wrote:

In ancient and traditional societies, time had to do with the ebb and flow of tides, the orbits of sun and moon, and the passing of seasons. It was marked by thinning light, the gradual thawing of ice, or the birth of lambs in the endlessly recurring seasons. Time was a circle within which humans lived. Not only was there an element of recreation in the economic activities of most preindustrial cultures, but in many the amount of time available for leisure appears to have been as great or greater than our own. (p. 26)

They went on to explain that preindustrial cultures spend about 3 or 4 hours per day meeting material needs. After eating, sleeping and providing for themselves, people like the aborigines, retain about 84 hours per week for pursuing social, creative and spiritual endeavors. In America, we retain about 30 hours per week for similar pursuits. By the time we occupy that 30 hours with internet browsing, cell phone perusal and television watching, we’ve used it up.

At this point, we’ve become an unconscious automatic culture that is floundering like a fish out of water. In Man and His Symbols, Carl Jung (pp. 64-72) indicated that the drive toward individuation, or claiming the God within, is instinctual and that we have separated from that instinct.

Without time to integrate daily activities within the psyche, or time to pursue spiritual consciousness and creativity, there is no society. There is only a group of automatons serving a different God, an economic God. The original idea was for the economy to serve us, not have us serve the economy. What good is it if we can’t follow our most basic instinct to higher consciousness?

We are in the midst of an awakening to an economic enslavement and our freedom rests in taking back our time. Call your friends and ask them how they are. Spirit thrives within your creativity so create something. Giving material things that you grab off a shelf will not awaken you, but keep you unconsciously serving the economy. Material things are fine and necessary, but all things in good measure to keep the balance. Giving something you create brings the spirit alive of both giver and receiver. That is how the economy can serve us and we can use our time to follow our instinct.

A New Mythology for a New Era

2011-11-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

Carl Jung saw a new religion, or new mythology, coming to life in the future. The old mythology involved a single creator God (he was a Protestant Christian) who came down to earth, worked hard for several days and then was never heard from again, except through his son. The new mythology that Jung saw is the same one many of us see today. The stars are aligning for the birth of a new era that brings with it a new God image, a new mythology.

On 11-11-11, astrologically speaking, Neptune, the carrier of illusion, entered 00 degree, 00 minutes and 00 seconds Pisces in the heliocentric wheel. In my opinion, the heliocentric wheel is what we should look at when speaking in terms of planet wide affects to our psyches, for reasons I won’t go into right now. Since Pisces is about sacrifice, hence the age we’ve just left with Yeshua sacrificed on the cross, we can see that our illusions will be sacrificed.

This alignment of Neptune in Pisces has been within orb, meaning we’ve been feeling the effects of it, since about 2000. If you think about it, you can see that since that time, our illusions have been slowly destroyed and they will continue to be for a good while. We are becoming aware of how a veil has been placed over our collective eyes by government (FDA, Federal Reserve, Congress and lobbyists and more), by corporations claiming to be helping us when in fact they’ve been setting us up to serve their acquisition of all funds (this just happened locally as big corporations claimed that allowing them to sell alcohol would increase funds for certain endeavors. This is false. What this new law did was force small businesses to close because they aren’t big enough to carry the alcohol anymore. There is a size restriction in place with this law. Before the state took all the profits and applied them to the tax base. Now, corporations take all the profits. People voted for this because they were led to believe that it would help us, and so they can buy large jugs of whiskey at Costco.), exposure of what’s been happening to our food supply, health care and most recently the economic system itself is being seen as a giant pyramid scheme that has trained us to serve it rather than it serving us.
The illusions will continue to fade into a new reality, a new mythology that increases conscious awareness, or more awareness of the unconscious. Many things of which we have been unaware due to illusion, will continue to be made aware and seen fully.

Beginning now, a new voice will begin to be heard; a voice that will rise above all others and show us where more illusions are hiding. The voice of the masses shouting ENOUGH will force change. The occupy movement is now in about 90 countries and will grow larger.

The new mythology, the new God image calls for all people to claim whom they really are, to claim the God within. This is how Jung saw it, this is how Yeshua saw it and this is how I see it. Suffering and sacrifice belongs to Pisces. Personal freedom, equality and service to humanity belongs to Aquarius. All the things you think you’ve done wrong are forgiven. All the reasons for suffering are vanquished. Claim your God within by agreeing to suffer no more.

Enlightenment

2011-11-02T08:05:00.001-07:00

I once was hiking along a wooded trail when I came upon a very large tree. Most old growth trees have been cut but this one was protected in a national forest. It was so beautiful, I had to stop and admire it. As my awareness focused on the tree, I realized that I was communing with it. I could feel its consciousness. In my infantile ignorance I asked, “What kind of tree are you?” Tree said, “I am that I am. To name me as anything diminishes my existence.” I then asked, “How old are you?” Tree said, “I have always been and will always be. To place me in limits of time diminishes me.” I was beginning to understand that this tree’s consciousness was in a place I had never been and had no concept of. It just was while my consciousness was ping-ponging among various linear attitudes. I thought, this must be what enlightenment looks like.

How to get there? Carl Jung saw enlightenment as a process he called Individuation. He saw this process as increasing consciousness by learning to place awareness in the middle of polar opposites. Our energy system works in opposites, hot/cold, up/down, conscious/unconscious etc. Enlightenment, or individuation, is in the middle. We can’t live in either polarity all the time or the energy system naturally must compensate by pulling us back to the other end. Neutrality, like the tree, is where we are going, not to the positive pole. New Age thinkers have us believing that if we are positive, then we are on the right track. Since we have been, historically speaking, negative, this may make immediate sense, but in the end, neutrality is where we really need to be.

Another way to begin paying attention to the unconscious is through symbolism and synchronicity. Symbolism can take on any form. It may be noticing how often you hear a particular phrase or word. If you say a word, and at the same time hear it in a song and you notice it, that is synchronicity. Perhaps you see a set of numbers often or in pairs and this brings meaning to you. It could be a book falling off a shelf just as you walk past. If that happens, buy the book and read it! Synchronicity is the ability to extract meaning from noticing symbolism. Synchronicity and symbolism show you your connection to the all and it guides you along your journey to center.

How to glow.

2011-10-27T10:35:00.000-07:00

There are a few people who hold light in their heart most of the time. It is a natural state for them and they wonder what is wrong with the rest of us who hold pessimism and worry. They seem to see things through God’s eyes. They have a practice of finding the positive side of all things, but more than that, they hold gratitude for all things, good and bad. Gratitude for life’s blessing and challenges brings awareness of Spirit in action in every moment. Being present in every moment allows us to appreciate the gifts held within each moment and there are plenty if we look closely enough. Holding light is more than daily spiritual practice like meditation or yoga. It’s holding gratitude at all times, a cosmic perspective and a remembrance of who you are. Those who hold their light find it easy to do so. Those of us who do not, find it difficult, only because we are not practiced at it or we get caught up in the mundane world and forget to pay attention to gratitude within the moment. It will never get easier without practice. My goal is to glow like the guy in this video. https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=2043263928080

Personal Transformations

2011-10-19T10:39:00.003-07:00

Inner shifting lurks in dark hallways of soul recesses. Move me! Move me! It follows wherever I go relentlessly stalking. Self reconnoiters ego looking for cracks to peek through bringing light of awareness. “Mingle with me” it whispers. “I long to bring you home. I miss you and all my fullness.”

Something lunges within and for brief moment I glimmer Self peeking through at me…with knowing smile and wink of eye. I am curious.

Diversions: Reposted

2011-10-12T22:35:00.001-07:00

Notice longing to do anything else when faced with opportunity to do what is loved. What is loved is heart singing and soul fulfilling of passion. Passion is personal power rising from the depths of unconsciousness to be lighted from the highest high. What fear lies in fulfilling passion? Accessing personal power terrifies like riding in a plane falling to ground uncontrolled. So unworthy to accomplish Spirit’s will that sought instead is another task. Any task will do.

Trust Spirit? Yes. Trust self? No. How to accept personal power to accomplish Spirit’s will / self-passion? Detach from outcome. Detach from idea of self in charge of path. Detach from all decision making. Trust Spirit to know all means and ways. Trust self not to know how, when, why or what, but to stay out of the way and listen. Listen and follow heart. Spirit will do the rest.

Introspection:
Working at passion brings resistant to accomplishment because passion means stepping into full power and authority. Be willing to accept self as messenger of your path.

Multi-dimensional Depths

2011-09-29T17:53:00.000-07:00

When we meet people from other incarnations, we sometimes feel a ‘trigger’ response; a feeling of connection and familiarity that runs deeper than you can put your finger on. This likely invokes a feeling of compulsion to be with that person romantically. You strive to pursue that end only to have the relationship not work out. It was painful as an experience, whether you were actually with them or not.
The pain of that deep love being unrequited opened a dimensional portal and began the process of transcendence on a dimensional level, not just a bridge between your conscious and unconscious, but a bridge between your unconscious and your other unconscious in another incarnation; I’ll call it your super-unconscious for now. This sudden opening of a bridge or portal in your super-unconscious created an electromagnetic vibrational rate change that was too fast for your physical body to manage. Your body became sensitive. You may have developed food intolerances, sound intolerances, smell intolerances, and certain people intolerances. You may have changed your relationships with friends or family, or changed jobs to place yourself among a different kind of person, a new vibrational rate to suit your new vibrational rate.

If you had an experience of a karmic complex activation and within a few months or years developed new sensitivities, you now understand why. The healing process for your body can be slow and requires great dedication, but it will be done.

The purpose of such an experience is one of transcendence on a level of never before attempted strides. The whole of humanity is making a move to bridge the unconscious with the super-unconscious, to other incarnations, because we are ready for that kind of responsibility. We can now, or soon will, access the energy dynamics of other incarnations to increase our super-conscious of this incarnation. This is how we claim the God that we are. This is how we reflect the image of God and become all that we are meant to be.

The Age of Aquarius is providing us a framework for developing our super-conscious and going through a micro-ordeal of sensitivities is part of the process. Claim who you are, but do so slowly and gently so as not to throw yourself any further into physical sensitivities than necessary.

Compassion

2011-09-21T06:59:00.001-07:00

Detached compassion: knowledge that others are suffering and a willingness to tolerate that suffering through any justification. Your thoughts might be, ‘that is too bad, but I need to worry about me and mine, or things need to change, someone should do that.’

Compassion fatigue: “I’m so tired of everyone wanting something from me. I can’t take care of everyone so I’ll take care of me. Please don’t ask me for anything.”

Compassion ideology: “I think the world needs more compassion. If everyone would just step up, the world would be a better place and I wouldn’t feel so burdened.”

Compassion embraced: “I see you. I see beauty that shines with the light of heaven. All the things that you think you’ve done wrong, are forgiven. All of them are forgiven. All the reasons for you living in suffering are vanquished. I claim the God that I am and grant you the right to claim the God that you are and suffer no more.”

Times, Depths and Synchronicity

2011-09-15T11:02:00.000-07:00

This is not my usual poetic style blog. Today I want to speak to something different. In The Red Book, Carl Jung writes of “the spirit of the depths” and “the spirit of the times”. Spirit of the times means current cultural beliefs and values of the external world on a collective level. It represents religion, political values, monetary values etc. He suggested that at the time, 1913, people were focused on the pursuit of money and religious doctrine in a way that prevented them from really going into the spirit of the depths.

Jung envisioned the spirit of the depths as a person’s inner experience of spirituality, emotions and intuition. He valued the psychology of the depths as significant to living. While the spirit of the times suggested to people that they focus on masculine, external matters, Jung was studying his own personal depths through the interpretation of symbols and mythologies that presented to him in his dreams.

Why do I bring this up? Because Jung found a way to communicate with his higher self by studying his dreams and visions. In his view, dreams and wakeful visions were not just nonsense, but messages from his unconscious side, his spiritual side, his depths. He learned to develop a sense of connection to his higher self by becoming aware of symbolism and synchronicity. He would notice a common vision throughout mythology included black serpents after he had dreams of black serpents. He studied until he could find interpretations of his dreams and in doing so began to understand the language of his higher self, of God, and understood the messages.

By communicating with higher self, whether through dreams, visions or journeys, and learning to notice synchronicity, you awaken your depths and move that much closer to accessing the Christ within. There are others ways of making that connection too, but this is one that most people can accomplish easily.

Begin keeping a dream journal. Ask your partner and friends about their dreams and you will learn to discern which dreams are personal and which are of the collective. Notice if you sneeze at a particular thought or if your dog barks when you are having a significant conversation. Synchronicities can occur in any form and every form. What makes them synchronicities is your ability to extract meaning from them.
The film Fools rush in is a good one for this. The main character played by Matthew Perry, sees signs everywhere telling him what to do. They are only significant signs because he notices them.

Confusion

2011-09-07T10:52:00.001-07:00

Confusion remains mighty as new way takes over. Anything new falls into unknown and unknown always feels like chaos and confusion. Structure comes with naming, claiming, taming and harnessing that which is chaotic, giving it shape and form with each step. Claim authority to name. This begins it.

Meditations to Balance Your Emotional Soul and other books by Boston Carter are available at https://nowageknowledge.com/?page_id=143.

Expectations

2011-09-01T12:19:00.003-07:00

Like hunter stalking prey, want from others follows as dark shadow plaguing its victim. Hunger for energy, praise, absolution, love, apologies, acknowledgement of existence, worthiness…leaves empty belly.

Hunter insists on stalking the same prey over and over and all the while not catching it…hunter dies. Not catching prey does not reflect hunter’s worthiness as a hunter, but rather prey’s worthiness to escape. The meeting of hunter’s needs lies elsewhere. Hunter must travel a different trail.

Introspection:
Let go of need for validation from others. Stand tall and strong in knowing self and Self. This is the only meal that satisfies hunger.

Synchronicity

2011-08-24T10:01:00.001-07:00

Lurking in shadows constantly seeking recognition, synchronicity follows while waiting to lead. LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME, it screams. Here is pathway. Here is creation from Self. Look for me everywhere; a bumper sticker, a street sign, something someone says, a song on the radio, numbers on the clock or on a license plate. I am everywhere waiting to be seen.

Introspection
Synchronicity is one of the first things that spiritual people learn to recognize. It is your higher Self showing you the way. Look for it.

Meaninglessness

2011-08-18T09:50:00.000-07:00

A state of being that slithers in slowly and stealthily until it suddenly appears in vision; meaninglessness is messenger of refused hero’s call(1). Rigid, set idea of what call should be makes it missed when arrived. Refused call magnifies unanswered question and begs a force to be reckoned. Intensity increases until call recognized and obeyed.

Introspection:
A journey through life requires guidance be followed. If we fear it or ignore it for any reason, life events will force us to eventually recognize it, but only after a period of restlessness and meaninglessness in life. A feeling of being lost, confused or ignored by God will persist until the call is answered.

(1) From Joseph Campbell's The Hero with a Thousand Faces.

Sickness and Health

2011-08-10T13:07:00.000-07:00

I’m not going to give you one of my usual poetic emotional descriptors today. Instead I’m going to write on a subject I am rather passionate about. With five planets in Taurus, yes I said five, I have a strong relationship with food. I am a proponent of organic farming and green agricultural practices. Why? As a medical intuitive, I’ve seen a tremendous rise in auto-immune diseases. In fact, I have one myself. Like most of you, I’ve been taught that sugar is ok, pharmaceutical drugs heal and too many vitamins are bad. I’ve also been taught that Medical Doctors know everything and it’s good for our food to load it up with pesticides so it looks pretty. Obesity, diabetes, heart disease, M.S. and every other conceivable ailment is the body’s way of saying, “I’m out of balance. Please help me.” How do we fix it? We give it more garbage, in the way of pharmaceuticals, to process and then wonder why we don’t get better.

The health care industry is a multi-billion dollar a year industry. In a capitalist society, there is no motivation for people to be well. There is every motivation to keep them just well enough so as to buy more cures, but not actually heal them and have the financial well run dry. In medical school, doctors are given two hours or less of education on nutrition, at least that’s what I’ve heard. The body requires nutrients in order to heal itself. Pills don’t heal and frankly, who are we to think that we understand the body better than the body does? Every time a new drug is made, a new problem is made to go with it. The body knows what to do and is driven to seek healing balance if we would just give it what it needs.

Fruits and vegetables contain micronutrients. Everything else we eat is a macronutrient. Micronutrients help the body to eliminate waste and balance the body’s natural chemistry with their high levels of anti-oxidants. Intense levels of micronutrients bring the body back to health. In liquid form is the easiest to absorb.

Juicing fresh fruits and vegetables can heal your body. I know that giving up the heavy fats and sugars is tough but it is doable, at least for a short time so you can reboot your immune system and clean up your chemistry.

I recommend three documentaries about nutrition and how it heals your body: “Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead”, The Beautiful Truth, and Food Matters. All are available on Netflix.
I will be entering a juice fast this coming week to begin my healing. Here’s to your health.

Meditation

2011-08-03T11:19:00.001-07:00

Truth sought through unseen forces thriving within. Introversion and silence awaken sleeping beauty Self. Look deep within to touch what is real and find that which is missed. Commune with Self briefly, for kiss of peace and notion of unity that is pursued from day one of incarnation. Separation of Self leaves longing for reunion to that which cannot be touched.

Introspection
Upon incarnation, separation of Soul brings forth personality that longs for reunion with higher Self; always seeking that which has not been reached while incarnate. Touch Self briefly through meditation…allowing self to step aside so Self can come forth.

Astrology

2011-07-27T09:42:00.001-07:00

Stars and planets circle heaven emitting radiations of destiny. Determined to manage timing, personality and event potentials, the Lords reign supreme over physical incarnation. Angles and trajectories dictate human task from life to life. What mythologies and archetypes will be created through this life? What subtle essence shall be reflected from the Universal Energy Matrix through human existence? Stars, planets and asteroids radiate their own unique magnetism, then join forces in combination of nuance at human gestation and birth. Astrology, numerology, math, music, cosmology, biology, geology, psychology and much more: all studies of matrix reflections. Every human being participates in study.

Healing

2011-07-20T12:55:00.001-07:00

Ailing body, thriving soul: illness giftwraps healing. Through intense pain and suffering, mind follows spirit. Falling to knees, cries of anguish resound, “Oh God. Please…” Through mediocrity, mind follows lower self and selfishness…but it doesn’t have to. Follow heart and passion with vigilance and without fail. To do otherwise invites healing redirection that can appear as poverty, hunger, loneliness, illness and many other masks.

Intuition

2011-07-14T14:47:00.001-07:00

Information waves ripple through ethers waiting to be received with nervous system at the ready for communication both to and from others. Electromagnetic radiation from people, planets, animals… send and receive data. Sensitive people know what truth is, but feel crazy when others words don’t match truth. What to do, what to do…. Find others like you and crazy stops.

Introspection
Many intuitive people don’t know that they are intuitive, they just know that something is different and since most people don’t talk about such things, they don’t understand what is happening. Intuition speaks what is unspoken and rings in more truth than what is seen. Listen…listen.

Two for One: Endings and Beginnings

2011-07-06T12:24:00.000-07:00

Endings

The direction of west ends the day. Destruction of what was makes way for creation of what is to come. Form to formlessness, to chaos and back to potential. Night begins as day ends. Day begins as night ends. Endings bring beginnings. Cycles upon cycles. Time after time.

Introspection
Most do not like change and express sorrow to endings. Celebrate endings. All endings. No such thing as bad event.

Beginnings

Chaos in form, formlessness in order, beginnings arise through pure potential of nothing that is also everything; one building block at a time drawn out of creation’s disorder. Pluck! One block is down and it is named. Pluck! Two blocks down and it is claimed. Pluck! Three blocks down and it is tamed. Pluck! Four blocks down and foundation formed. Process of beginnings 1, 2, 3, 4 and then build some more.

Introspection
Beginnings, full of excitement, arise from endings. To bring order from chaos through process. Name it, the idea. Claim it as own. Tame it into pattern. Form it into structure.

Cycles

2011-06-29T07:46:00.001-07:00

Frenetic motion runs rampant with high noon sun and southern exposure. Lightset comes welcoming westerly ends of action. Midnight comes bringing northerly respite and reset systems, like that of hibernating bear. Lightrise stirs mind and body from respite; begins call to action and once again greet high noon. Cycles run each hour, each day, each year and each sidereal year. Sidereally speaking, Lightrise is upon us.

Boundaries:

2011-06-23T08:33:00.001-07:00

Essential to physical life, lines hold definition and placement. Lines create shapes that bring order from chaos and labels to reflect reality. Lines, labels and boxes bring sanity. Lines fixed hard into stone are finite and immovable. Lines drawn in water disappear as soon as they are made. Lines sketched soft onto paper are erasable and changeable.

Heart-felt lines, both fixed and flexible, make relating possible. Holding lines hard when heart wants to be soft brings challenge.

Introspection:
Hard lines, like levees along the ocean, bring safety and security against mighty forces. Soft lines give flexibility to gentler forces. Knowing when to be hard and when to be soft is one part of self-mastery.

Transformation

2011-06-16T10:25:00.001-07:00

Slow, gradual change uplifts to higher realms that which is sought through eternity. A return to Self. The one that is missing, has always been missing without knowing what it is. Climb Jacob’s ladder upon the rungs of karma clearing a pathway to Self, truth of truth. Twin trees of life and knowledge return self again and again to different rungs on ladder….always climbing.

Introspection
Life after life we seek to re-ascend after the descent into matter; a constant cycle of working energy to know Self.

Perception

2011-06-08T08:20:00.001-07:00

Seeing other through kaleidoscopic lens skews vision of beauty into monsters, telling stories of persecution, betrayal and lies when truth is clear. How to alter vision so truth is seen? Many truths exist within any one event. Choose to seek options. Look through other’s lens. Corrective vision comes with time and practice.

Free Will

2011-06-01T07:24:00.001-07:00

Like thunder rolling through sky, chaos finds humans through insistence to be heard. Must have way, which brings poor use of free will. Free will is wrench of enlightenment when used to turn screws of listening and a clog of gears when used as power. Power misused brings frustration… chaos. Exercised well, free will allows flow of energy and information like rain falling, seeking ocean through mountains.

Envy

2011-05-25T08:34:00.001-07:00

A green monster creeps into thoughts as attention is focused on another’s achievement or possession. It stomps in loud and uproarious boasting of what is had. It stands tall on its hind legs looking intimidating as it shouts out ‘I am better than you’ and self perceives attack. How to fight a monster so much bigger than self?

Thoughts and feelings power to full throttle as self detaches from other’s seeming successes. Attention shifts back to self’s path and life. self’s path is good too, just different. Green monster has nothing on self with inner independence. This is what binds Self and self together.

Waiting

2011-05-18T10:23:00.001-07:00

Life creeps along more slowly than desire for movement. Transition to another step in journey’s purpose leaves wanting for more…now. Conscious self wants control, wants progress, wants, wants, wants like small child expressing tantrums of yearning.

Striving to complete journey brings stoppages, one after another. Let go screams higher self. Let us see what’s next. Let us run things from where we can see the future. Allow self to relax; enjoy a break in between tasks. No movement now sees busy-ness in near future. Eliminate struggle, wait for planets to align with your mission; wait for right timing. Wait.

Introspection:
When confusion and directionless mind-set in, wait with patience, understanding and knowing that all is well and in right timing: trust.

2011-05-11T09:35:00.000-07:00

Today, I look for solace and peace as I release all that occupies my mind. Today there will be no work. Today, I am holding space for myself to wander aimlessly through the deep crevasses of my being while at the same time floating through as an observer. Today is meant as a present moment when nothing happens at all. Today is my birthday; an opportunity to give myself permission to let go of all that is and isn't.

I think this means that I go shopping for art supplies and do whatever I want. :)

Success

2011-05-04T08:13:00.001-07:00

Stalking cash in endless effort for more, yet it eludes. Success lives as energy. Consciousness motor pushes success in vehicle of self-confidence. Knowing who you are and for what you stand. Stand in knowledge with heaviest gravity. Value what is offered other and trust self to say what limits are.

Introspection: Success is an energy archetype, and as such cannot be measured by money. Measuring by money will push it away. Instead see success as feeling confident. Know what matters to you and how you value that. Know what you want to give to the world and value it. Money follows value. One part of valuing self is to trust self. In our culture, we tend to want to present ourselves in a neat and perfect package. But you will always know that you are covering and that is something you will not trust. You must trust yourself and to do that you must be willing to say what your limits are. That is what’s real and true.

Faith and Disappointment

2011-04-28T08:58:00.001-07:00

Like black tire hanging from tree, faith and disappointment swing forward and back, forward and back. Dichotomous states weigh heavy strain on branch’s support. Hope for future. Fear of past repeats. Branch creaks as tire becomes heavier with each passing swing adding force to make it go higher and higher until… it breaks.

Unoccupied, tire hangs in stillness. Branch remains strong. Tree remains vital and connected to other trees. No swing, no strain, no creak, no break… No fun.

Still tire invites movement; invites action. Can tire swing without becoming heavy and burdensome to branch? Can dichotomous states exist in moderation to allow experience of life without careening out of control? Wishes and dreams put into action without attachment to outcome, or timing, swings the tire just enough to have fun without breaking the branch.

Judgement

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Like thunder, the booming voice of judgment rolls out in ripples as it licks the aura of other only to echo back and penetrate identity. Lightening strikes out another chip of self-esteem, as longing to push away self-realization satiates for the moment. Strive to raze back from the ashes by throwing another ball of BOOM only to burn further down.

Thunder penetrates and lightening burns bringing opportunity of transformation. Renovate self in the wake of casted ripples. Become a phoenix of discernment, which casts nothing: not to other, and therefore, not to self.

Expectations

2011-04-13T10:50:00.003-07:00

Like hunter stalking prey, want from others follows as a dark shadow plaguing its victim. Hunger for energy, praise, absolution, love, apologies, acknowledgement of existence, worthiness…leaves empty belly.

Hunter insists on stalking the same prey over and over and all the while not catching it…hunter dies. Not catching prey does not reflect hunter’s worthiness as a hunter, but rather prey’s worthiness to escape. The meeting of hunter’s needs lies elsewhere. Hunter must travel a different trail.

Introspection:

To expect certain attitudes from someone who won’t feed you leaves you hungry for more praise, more apologies and more acknowledgements. To continue seeking these from the same person who won’t give them, is to kill yourself from starvation. Either seek what you hunger for from within yourself, or surround yourself with those who appreciate what you offer them as food. Both is preferable.

Risk

2011-04-06T09:11:00.001-07:00

Through door of jeopardy enters all things. Once possessed, undeniably again lost. What price paid for that desired? What cost to not have desired? No risk then no love, no met needs, no juice of life. Cost? Yes. Worth it? Yes. Meaning enters through gate of jeopardy too.

Discontent

2011-03-30T14:39:00.001-07:00

Lurking, impatient heaviness lingers like thick fog as it writhes with loathing in wait, wait. ‘Take this from me’, it screams. Bring something, anything that reeks of success, of movement, of satisfaction for now. What is it? Unknown, but bring it.
Disgruntlement driven awry through vehicle of faith, of certainty, of right timing. Conjure faith through portal of release. Become prey rather than predator and let go of outcome. Let go of desire. As prey, desire no longer lives.

Introspection:

Discontent with what is happening now brings misery. To know outcome is always desired and rarely obtained so to let go of need to understand God’s intent brings peace. Letting go is what prey does when it sees a predator has it in its grip.

Source and scarcity

2011-03-24T07:56:00.001-07:00

The sword of fire reigns, knighting with two paradoxical forces: scarcity and resourcefulness. Blade cuts path of new thought as understanding pervades mind. Scarcity is in mind, not real. Not real. Source lies within and takes form of giving. What gift is offered brings resources. Aid another to be successful. Offer another what is longed for self and prosperity rules. Then blade swings to re-knight as great leader (warrior) and resourcefulness rules mind.

Diversions

2011-03-16T12:52:00.001-07:00

Notice a longing to do anything else when faced with the opportunity to do what is loved. What is loved is heart singing and soul fulfilling of passion. Passion is personal power rising from the depths of unconsciousness to be shone upon from the highest high. What fear lies in fulfilling passion? Accessing personal power terrifies like riding in a plane falling to ground uncontrolled. So unworthy to accomplish God’s will that sought instead is another task. Any task will do.

Trust God? Yes. Trust self? No. How to accept personal power to accomplish God’s will / self-passion? Detach from outcome. Detach from idea of Self in charge of path. Detach from all decision making. Trust God to know all means and ways. Trust self not to know how, when, why or what, but to stay out of the way and listen. Listen and follow heart. God will do the rest.

Breakthrough

2011-03-09T10:28:00.001-08:00

With world on shoulders, muscles ache from step after step of mountainous climb. See the top, up there, just out of reach. Wait! Want to go down. Wait again! Can’t turn around. Would roll and tumble and be crushed by the globe. Must continue forward with step after step. Faith hangs on. When peak is grasped, breakthrough sings the dawn.

Introspection:

Life can seem like an uphill climb full of responsibility and obligation. Life becomes joyful when peaks are reached and the burden put down to roll it’s own way, leaving you to glide on the kite your higher self packed for your journey; the one you didn’t know you had.

Conviction

2011-03-02T08:23:00.001-08:00

Boulder worn smooth stands propped on precipice by surrounding smaller stones. Stones’ idea becomes boulder’s. Thunderous clap and lightening strike crack boulder sending it down cliff to rest as jagged rock. No longer propped by stones, rock remains strong, hard and true to self with nowhere to fall.

Introspection:

Conviction of beliefs is easy when others agree. Real conviction comes when beliefs fall outside the majority and self stands certain anyway.

Adversity

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Sovereignty

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Deep in the core of Self lies the authority to wrestle down inner demons to cooperative, sedentary status. Costumed in fear, demons render powerless that which is supremely powerful. Self possesses complete power to discern lines that others may not cross, complete authority to value Self regardless of outside opinion. No one at any time has any power to influence a conscious state, unless such power is given.

Give away sovereignty and lose Self to other. Retain authority over Self, alone and no other, to gain freedom and connection within. Willingness to stand for something, to take a strong position and hold it even when it’s hard is to gain Self. The Universe will test on this. Fear and insecurity will thrive as life’s challenging maze is traversed. The way out of the maze? …follow heart, especially when it’s hard.

Growing Pains

2011-02-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

As tree takes many years to rise to its full potential, so does human take lifetimes to mature. Body grows quickly compared to mind. Mind may live forever and not reach its potential, yet potential is always, always right there to stretch out and take hold of.

Painful moment brings strength, or weakness if chosen. Use mind to see through cosmic eyes and build stamina to overcome personality’s thinking. True strength of spirit comes through mature mind that knows all is well. ALL is well.

Reincarnation

2011-02-02T10:46:00.000-08:00

Physical life: an incredibly short time…on purpose. To live is to act in a single play, to be in dream state from reality. Life is death from real Self. Come back again and again to experience all parts of Self; that which is whole when not incarnate. While whole, can’t see all Self. Must break into parts to understand full capacity of soul.
Soul takes knowledge and experience back to others, while personality remains behind. Personality learns while soul already knows, but gains experience. Life is good. Death is good. They are one-in-the-same.

Mind Decadence

2011-01-26T17:16:00.001-08:00

Thoughts circle round and round like vultures waiting to feed on death. Worry, wondering and fear duke it out to see which shall eat today. They think if they keep circling, their prey will die. Round and round they fly. Round and round till it dies.
What would stop their flight? Prey rising up to greet them, sending them on their way. Life lives here, as it must, in the form of flow, mastery and trust.

Endings

2011-01-19T10:08:00.000-08:00

Destruction of what is returns form to formlessness, to chaos; back to potential. Sun does not rise until daylight ends. Rest does not occur until action ends. Love does not occur until hate and anger end. Cycles occur continuously.

Stagnation

2011-01-13T09:03:00.001-08:00

Stillness out of balance, stagnation needs churning. Ocean waves roll up onto shore and back out into vastness. They do not remain on shore to die suffocating. In and out, up and down, winter and summer, spring and fall, cycles of movement and change bring life to all.

Unknown

2011-01-05T08:54:00.001-08:00

Unknown stinks to highest heaven of chaos. Smells cling to inner nostrils and tastes bitter until creative potential released. What to do with chaos? Gain knowledge. Enough knowledge and the unknown becomes known, or does it? Religion explains unknown to be feared or worshiped. Spirituality discerns chaos of unknown as individual beliefs. self pulls belief from heavenly chaos bringing it to world in form. Knowledge, unknown side by side in non-linear form changing through each individual who interprets it.

Abandonment

2010-12-29T09:51:00.001-08:00

Other is angry…other will leave. Ego fears being left when anger rises in other. Peace at all costs. No boundaries. Nurture, nurture, then other will stay. Fear brings opportunity to take position and speak highest truth. Speak opinion, speak through courage, speak and be heard over other’s anger. This is what fear asks. Be willing to be alone with Self rather than silence self into passive boundary-less being.

Patience

2010-12-22T11:53:00.001-08:00

A measure of tolerance beckons as bother rises into throat, waiting to spew ugliness from the underside of reason. Howling through the boughs of irritation, frustration whirls through mind with icy cold fury that is its wintry storm…brewing…brewing. LOOK IN THE EYE. Storm is calm as sleeping baby. Right in the middle, the center of Self lays the resolution to stormy clash. Patience; a measure of compassion.

Relationships

2010-12-15T08:43:00.001-08:00

Flowing through mind with every thought and feeling, everything and everyone is in relationship. To treat everything as it is a relationship is to respect flow of life and natural cycles. Planets, plants, animals and people relate through each moment of time as a candle to a darkened room when giving energy. Darkness takes energy while light gives it. Relate as is wished.

Betrayal

2010-12-08T09:46:00.001-08:00

Wanting from others to feel safe and secure. Their wants differ and their path differs. Betrayal bursts through door with blazing fires. Want more to feel safe. Want more to feel secure. No one is giving what is wanted. Betrayal thrives in bigger flames. Let go wanting. Let go control of outcome. Let go betrayal for other sees own path. Other sees strong, competent one who can fill own wants. No betrayal intended. Forgive others their own paths, their own wishes and betrayal dies.

Rejection

2010-12-01T09:08:00.000-08:00

Thwarted by desire to belong, rejection screams, “I am worthy”, but deep inside worthiness is not believed. Grow and expand Self through opportunity of aloneness. Rejection does not mean unworthiness. It does mean ‘go the other way. This way is not correct.’ Stop trying to open the same door over and over again. Go to another door. If new door is hidden, wait until fog clears so it can be seen.

Positive Process

2010-11-25T09:07:00.001-08:00

The frightful giant beast slithers along eking ever closer to the claimed territory of dread. It creeps closer and closer… Gasp! Anxiety rises up into throat as beast hisses threat of panic, happiness. It hisses again, happiness. Dread stakes its claim and holds firm against beast. Wait! Beast looks much smaller than first thought. Beast only moves slowly and gently as it crawls along leaving a trail of hissed happiness. In fact, beast’s presence brings comfort, if only for a moment before dread panics. When beast allowed to linger, dread loses claim. Soon both share territory. Unclear which is beast…unclear. Must choose.

Prosperity

2010-11-17T15:16:00.001-08:00

Seed of prosperity is planted through the gentle hands that help another. It is nurtured into sprout with compassionate intention for that which used to be called competition. Flowers grow together in a field, each one contributing to the richness of rainbow visions spanning a meadow. Together, they spread a blanket of cooperative beauty across lands of milk and honey. Prosperity grows wildly, flourishing among those who think with helping in mind.

Source and scarcity

2010-11-10T10:40:00.001-08:00

The sword of fire reigns over America knighting her with two paradoxical forces: scarcity and resourcefulness. Blade cuts path of new thought as understanding pervades mind. Scarcity is in mind, not real. Not real. Source lies within and takes form of giving. What gift is offered brings resources. Aid another to be successful. Offer another what is longed for self and prosperity rules. Odds of success… one hundred percent. Then blade swings to re-knight as great leader (warrior) and resourcefulness rules mind.

Passion

2010-11-03T08:43:00.001-07:00

Highly sought after and ever elusive for most people, passion slowly finds its way into the heart of those who seek it. One day it strikes like a powerful bolt of clarity as it screams, “I am here”. It grabs by throat refusing to let go until it is heard, “I am your destiny, what drives your existence and you will obey me.” Obey it must, as nothing else will do.

Then to recognize in what form passion shows itself; that is the trick. Leave money aside to ask what is most valued? What is most wanted to give to the world? What assets within are paid attention to and grown? Are these congruent?

My passion is to help you find your passion and I am tenacious in my pursuit. It drives me with thunderous clarity as I dig through my large bag of tools searching for the one that best allows you to build self. With passion as my passion, I offer clarity to those who seek it and with great pleasure serve it up on silver and gold.

Energy

2010-10-27T11:06:00.001-07:00

Energy moves and mingles in every moment. Thought alone has no substance, much like electrons in a wire. They cannot move of their own accord, they need a driver. Emotions, like voltage, carry energy through the ethers into the hearts and minds of others and the universe, which responds in kind.

How is energy managed? From where do struggles come? The nourishment of attention grows and expands. Attention with emotion is power to move and manage. Elation married to intention and gestated with the nourishment of love brings to fruition.

Money

2010-10-20T08:19:00.001-07:00

If I were God, I’d look upon my children and see how far they have come up out of darkness and I would see that they are on the edge of real light and ready for the next step. To that end I would raze what remains of their monetary system so they could face fears of lack, see how they relate to and value money, and rise up to build a new system, a system that values all people equally, a system that encourages fulfilling passion, a system of conscious relating to the system. And I would smile at seeing them blossom.

Groups:

2010-10-13T09:03:00.001-07:00

The heart and dynamic soul of human existence, groups breathe life into psyche. They determine feelings about self, manners, values and more. To how many groups anyone may belong is countless: family, lover, company, friends based on topic, interest or purpose.

How close or how far each group member is to self flows and ebbs like a river that rises and falls with the rains. Some are fast and furious and gone in a flash flood of confused emotion while others meander and loiter in and out of days and years.

Groups work best when held in even numbers. Odd numbered members means one is always left out because people pair up in alliance for power and survival, to see each other’s point of view in agreement to preserve psyche. Third wheel comes to mind as common term. Odd numbered groups can survive if two do not gather to discuss one.

Introversion / Extroversion

2010-10-06T16:21:00.000-07:00

Culture supports extroversion; outgoing jokester, life of the party character bringing sunshine to the lives of those around them. Make an entrance. Take over the room to show prowess and authority. Fill the entire space with yourself. Walk tall. Sell, sell, sell. Be outgoing. Make lots of money. Sparkle and shine.

Introvert is quiet, philosophical and sagely. Rarely noticed while standing against wall, waiting for the party to be over. Longing for home and time alone. Doesn’t care to serve economy, but rather an inner, or higher, calling. Where is respect and support for being wise to the inner, spiritual world? Why is spiritual or emotional IQ not valued like mental IQ? Are not all necessary? Culture doesn’t fit introvert… Just doesn’t fit.

Economic Slavery:

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Fall into job. Strive for big house, more money, health care, caring for children and so on. Sleep a third (33%) of life. Work over a third of life. Spend about 15% resting idle to prepare for more work. Spend last 15% doing whatever might feed Self and soul, if known how and other areas of life don’t suck away that time.

Why is there such a strong push to work so much? When is enough, enough? There was a time when we could choose to work half time and live more simply. No more. The choice to work part time no longer exists because costs have gone higher than incomes.

It’s like playing the game monopoly. It’s fun to get houses and hotels on your property and watch people struggle to pay; it brings a sense of winning; of power. Then winning happens and the game is over because those who can’t pay are forced into bankruptcy and can no longer play. Monopoly shows capitalism at it’s best, but in a short period of time so viewing results is easy. It’s a pyramid scheme and it does not work long term to sustain all players. It does provide plenty of competition, but at what cost?

From a book called World Changing, edited by Alex Steffen, this is stated, “If we were selling our time-and perhaps our souls- to a system that truly fed us, that would be one thing. But the economy is not designed for people; rather, people are trained to serve the economy.”

Economic slavery defined: The forced position to work at any job, regardless of fulfillment, in order to survive because societal systems are such that there is no alternative.

A strong need to think outside known reality is at hand. In order to change the system to one that works for everyone’s personal fulfillment; to one that serves all, a radical new idea is needed. RADICAL IDEA!! Someone out there has an idea. Many someone’s have ideas that could all work. Maybe it’s you. Maybe you feel like there is no point since the system is so big and those in control have too much power? There is a point. Bring it. I am willing to put in my 15% to help. Will you?

If money didn’t exist, what would you do to show up in the world? How would you want to leave the world better? Will your soul settle for anything less? It’s time.
Game over.

Health and Mercury

2010-09-22T11:00:00.001-07:00

This blog will not be as poetic as my usual blog style because this is a serious topic that needs to be clear. About three years ago I became very ill with food intolerances. I’ve had this intolerance come on gradually over many years. The issue became progressively worse until I was in bed for four months with severe anemia, hypoglycemia, and much more of which I will spare you the details.

With great effort, I realized that I was gluten intolerant. So I began to heal my body by avoiding gluten. Then I developed allergies to eggs, dairy, corn, night shades and on it goes. My condition has continued to get worse. Interestingly enough, I began getting clients with the same condition. In fact, every third or fourth person I looked at (medical intuition) had the same problem. Inflammation of the intestines, interstitial cystitis of the bladder, joint pain, hypoglycemia, fatigue, low iron, weight gain, enlarged right lobe of the thyroid, susceptibility to illness and more. Many of these people were diagnosed with fibromyalgia.

I couldn’t figure out why so many people had this incredibly common ailment that continued to get worse, even with diet changes, and no doctors seemed to understand that all these symptoms were the same disease and not fibromyalgia. Interstitial cystitis is a huge red flag for whatever this is.

Then I began working with Dr. Moira Fitzpatrick, a naturopathic physician, doing readings for her difficult cases. I came across more of the same and she identified their ailment as Hashimoto’s Disease, an autoimmune disease. Great! Now I have a name for this very popular problem. Now I want to know what is causing it. Why is it so prevalent? I couldn’t see any body processes that were creating the problem.

Then I saw a film called The Beautiful Truth, about The Gerson Therapy and our food supply. A man in that film said this one statement, one time and it struck me like lightening, “Mercury fillings cause autoimmune diseases”. They showed how mercury emits gaseous vapor when scraped at all. So every time we chew or get our teeth cleaned, we are exposed to mercury poisoning. Ah ha! That would explain why the problem gets worse when all the corrective measures are taken. So I set about my task and asked everyone I know who has Hashimoto’s if they have mercury fillings. They do and so do I. I checked with my guides several times to make sure. The answer I get is yes, mercury causes autoimmune diseases. Here is a link to some information about mercury poisoning. http://www.holisticmed.com/dental/amalgam/

Hashimoto’s Disease can be confirmed by thyroid tests. The immune system is so busy dealing with the constant exposure to mercury that it begins to fail causing autoimmune issues. Your system begins to attack itself beginning with the thyroid. The thyroid doesn’t produce hormones correctly which in turn tell the pancreas to stop producing pepsin and then the stomach stops producing acid and enzymes for digestion, which in turn causes inflammation of the intestines because the food can’t be digested. The inflamed intestines cause lack of nutrient absorption so then hypoglycemia and interstitial cystitis occur, as well as weight gain because you are constantly hungry from being mal-nourished. Eventually, the gallbladder begins to act up too and it goes on from there.

Teaching:

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When door opens to dark room, light bleeds into room; darkness does not bleed into lighted hallway. Light cannot be dowsed unless light-holder wishes it dowsed. The first Adam came unto a very dark world to act as candle; a flicker of hope to save souls who were trapped in their own dark creations.

When Adam returned as Yeshua, he did not say I am your teacher, he said, “I am the light and the way. Follow me and you will be saved”. He was not here to teach, but to remind of beauty, to show that all have light.

To teach, one must see others as less than because to place self as teacher, one must judge other as in need of learning; in need of being better than. Teacher/student relationships require a power structure. Power structures make for separation (darkness) rather than connection. Yeshua wished for equality. He said, “You will do works as great as I and greater works than I”. He wanted all to hold light and by doing so, do great works. Self is not here to teach. Self is here to support and empower beauty. Learning, however, may be involved.

Parenting

2010-09-08T10:55:00.001-07:00

Endless self-reflecting challenge appears as small packages of humans. Little things clinging to pant legs uttering phrase ‘I want’ all day long. Parent constantly questioning reactions, feelings, words, decisions… bring ongoing self-doubt as daily ritual. What little thing needs? What little thing wants? What about little thing??

Social pressure to be perfect parent, remain calm, never yell because that’s abusive, don’t spank, redirect, don’t say no, but say no. Bring self fully, authentically to the game, but not like that. Praise them, praise them little things.

No I say. Yell I will when patience pushed. Praise I will too. Good for little things to know when line crossed. Good for little thing to feel safe that parent is in control. Question self? Yes. Always. Parents cannot perfect be and little things scarred will be because they choose how to see it. Parent cannot prevent little thing from seeing scars or placing blame. They just will.

Life and Death:

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“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death…” Called life, but realistically is death; the forgetting of True Self upon incarnation. Part of soul lost to consciousness, lost to knowing and understanding leaves feeling of aloneness.

How to thrive in death (earth walk)? Find grace and peace within relating to higher self; to squelch hellish fear, worry and judgment. Find meaning within life (death) and return to eternal life with new knowledge and understanding of life forgotten in earth walk. Why come here to tread land?

Whole Self cannot be known while whole. Must break down parts to experience Self in pieces; dark pieces, light pieces, grey pieces… Walk in physical boots to know all of Self through the ages, time and time again. Time brings change in experience, brings change in surroundings, brings new stars, new magnetic radiations, new parts of Self exposed. “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil…”

Projection

2010-08-25T07:46:00.001-07:00

Words heard through veils of thick wounds, cascading down listener mind, certain to hear same old thing. Monsters telling stories to lure victim into familiar trap, or well intentioned other falling prey to self’s past experiences?

What lies dormant but suddenly wakes like sleeping giant within? Trespasses past flash flood the cascade wringing forth giant’s cries as writhing commences. All this only to make a choice: hear same old meanings and scamper away like kitten hurt, or listen with new ears, see with new eyes and taste with new tongue that which may be kind, well-intended and/or not about self.

Surrender

2010-08-18T10:35:00.001-07:00

“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures. He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul.” Psalm 23.

Wanting set aside and detachment from outcome embraced, then abundance provided. Faith and trust in higher self brings peace of still emotions, then centeredness (soul restored). Forgotten, these words, and their meaning, hold little value. Remembered, ease the dis-ease of fear.

Yeshua said, “You shall be all that I am and more.” To be like him means to think like him. To ascend means to overcome karmic fear, which will be one, or more, of four: unworthiness, insecurity, abandonment and unknown. All four grab by throat to suffocate. Only defense?...give up wanting life to go a certain way. Accept what comes in challenge and pass the test. The alternative is failing self.

Trust

2010-08-11T11:25:00.000-07:00

“Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the road is easy that leads to destruction, and there are many who take it. For the gate is narrow and the road is hard that leads to life, and there are few who take it.” Yeshua (Jesus): Matthew, 7.13-14.
If clearing mind was easy, it would have been done by now. The hard road traveled requires practice and faith. Not faith that what is wanted is acquired, but faith that God / Spirit wants all to be happy and will provide whatever is necessary, even if that is homelessness, bankruptcy or death. I say this for me as much as you. Economic times challenge as monetary system changes. I have no reference for what an economy without greed might look like or work like, but I so look forward to finding out. Imagine. Imagine so it can become so.

Practice returning mind to trust and fill it with thoughts of gratitude for whatever is or will be. “The Lord is my Sheppard, I shall not want.” Fear leads to destruction of self. Trust is the rougher road…at first. The more this road is traveled, the smoother it becomes.

Ascension

2010-08-04T10:08:00.001-07:00

Spiritual maturing proceeds from one level to the next like a great spiral staircase, one step at a time. Every once in a while there is a small landing upon which to stand and take in sustenance equal to a new level of consciousness. Pieces and parts of higher self unite with earthly self on those landings.

Journey continues as a new birth, resembling a mini reincarnation. Learning of old wisdom begins again with each rise traveled. All that was known of how to deal with fear must be relearned. All that was known of personality must be re-experienced in the new self.

To see through new eyes means to relearn through them as well. Maturity strengthens soul to become lighter and lighter with each step on the ascending rise to become a light being of compassion, quiet strength, forgiveness, trust and sovereignty; ignoring fear. Each level accomplished brings new insights, new perspectives to new eyes.

Longing

2010-07-28T10:01:00.001-07:00

Longing for…something. What is it? What makes the hole inside seem so big and hollow? A cavernous space left behind by old energy systems that now needs filling with…something. Piscean age passes leaving behind desire for sacrifice, which came out backwards as selfish concerns; selfish because with sacrificial thinking, no one wants to be who is sacrificed.

Aquarian age transcends, bringing new energy for something to fill the void left by Pisces. The cavern can only be filled with what Aquarius wants. Anything else will be spat out. Aquarius wants inner freedom (autonomy), innovation (creativity), service to others and self-mastery, the four components of inner peace.

To fill the gaping void with Aquarian energy dynamics, begin with autonomy by carving time into schedule, then use time to create a gift for the world that provides service to others. Self-mastery results.

Intention:

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Strings of energy flow to and fro through a gateway of intention. That which is expected comes to life, while that which is desired repels. Thoughts and feelings blow mighty winds forcing doors open and closed in each moment.

Intention runs energy and dictates pathways. Two or more beings focused on same intention generate exponential power to create. Intend to heal all fears. Intend to house compassion. Intend to be peaceful. Intend to remain focused on such and these will come.

Expectations

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Boundaries:

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Essential to physical life, lines hold definition and placement. Lines create shapes that bring order from chaos and labels to reflect reality. Lines, labels and boxes bring sanity. Lines fixed hard into stone are finite and immovable. Lines drawn in water disappear as soon as they are made. Lines sketched soft onto paper are erasable and changeable.

Heart-felt lines, both fixed and flexible, make relating possible. Holding lines hard when heart wants to be soft brings challenge. Hard lines, like levees along the ocean, bring safety and security against mighty forces. Soft lines give flexibility to gentler forces. Knowing when to be hard and when to be soft is one part of self-mastery.

Faith and Disappointment

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Fear

2010-06-23T08:44:00.001-07:00

Raw and insistent, fear grumbles in mind like poisonous venom as it courses through veins eating life. Fangs of obsessive notion gorge on flesh of connected love. Subtle in opinion, fierce in anger; fear grows mightier in every moment it is allowed to thrive. Think of it to give it power; ignore it to give it due.

Rather focus to empowerment of other. Give detachment of need or want. Give non-judgment. Give to raise esteem. Self will not die without the love clung to, but thrive on the giving of it. Empty longing will not be filled without the elevation of other.

The poisonous beast may only be killed through setting it free. Violent force upon it grows it stronger and fiercer. Gentleness it cannot understand nor tolerate. Give and it shall die.

Power of now

2010-06-16T08:24:00.001-07:00

Control of life progress and process eludes as learning self-discipline of mind slows manifestation of future dreamed. 2012 approaches like a hurricane with its promised notion of self-realization and ability to manifest life as wished. Mighty winds of disciplined mind lacks for such a task while notion has arrived. Right now stormy powers hover, yet unrealized.

Thoughts travel outward in a swirl made visible to God-force and returned as sent. Keeping a blank slate returns a blank slate. Power is held by the disciplined and undisciplined alike. Heart and mind create. That upon which is focused returns through the hurricane rains.

Judgment

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Restlessness

2010-06-02T11:50:00.000-07:00

Chaos sometimes appears in restless form while empty weighs in with a hefty dose of blah, accompanied by boredom. A lioness of energy roars for the hunt of dreams that won’t wait for a starving hunter. She growls low and furrows her brow with a quizzical suggestion of NOW. Now is the time to pounce, now is when something must happen, but she waits because she must. Agitatedly waits for the next meal of direction to fill the empty of tedium.

Out of the chaotic wilds a new kind of meal comes, but not yet. Lioness must linger and listen for her prey of dreams. Will she recognize it when it comes, or will it pass stealthily by unnoticed? She prances back and forth eager to capture her new essence.

Waiting

2010-05-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

Life creeps along more slowly than desire for movement. Transition to another step in journey’s purpose leaves wanting for more…now. Conscious self wants control, wants progress, wants, wants, wants like a small child expressing tantrums of yearning.

Strive to complete journey brings stoppages, one after another. Let go screams higher self. Let us see what’s next. Let us run things from where we can see the future. Allow self to relax; enjoy a break in between tasks. No movement now sees busy-ness in near future. Eliminate struggle, wait for planets to align with your mission; wait for right timing.

Increase self-esteem

2010-05-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

I am setting poetic license aside for this blog so I can talk straight and clear about how to raise self-esteem. I see the issue of low self-esteem as the reason taking of energy is such a big phenomenon while giving remains minimal. This is what creates conflict both on a personal level and a world level: a strong desire to take and not give equally. Taking energy occurs when focus is placed on self in negative ways. For example, does so and so love me? Do I parent the right way? Do I meet expectations?

Self-esteem comes into question when inner conflict is experienced. You may have two values that are out of sync. For example, you value providing for your family, but you also value following your passion in regards to career and that may mean not having sufficient income to provide for family. The conflict of values will wreak havoc with your self-esteem.

How to raise self-esteem? Make a list of what you value on each of the four planes: Physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. Where do those values come from? Are they yours or do they come from your family, boss, culture, media etc.? Can you live up to your expectations? If not, then you have to change your values or change your behavior to suit your values. Likely both. If your expectations are too high, you will always suffer low self-esteem. If your behaviors, and I mean on the inner more than the outer, don’t match your values, you will suffer low self-esteem.

You may have to accept your humanity. Appreciate what being human does. It gives your soul an opportunity to experience all parts of energy, not just the light parts. Pushing your ego aside will not help you. Your ego is part of your humanity and it is not a bad thing. Ego is nothing more than a container for your thoughts and attitudes. It is full of whatever you fill it with.
1. Physical - Express appreciative thoughts about your body and what works right with it rather than what you think is wrong with it. Express gratitude for all materials received such as food, clothing and shelter.

2. Mental - When you catch yourself thinking negatively, thank your mind for showing you the binary energy system at work. That is why your soul is here, to experience all parts of energy. Then move on and choose what you think.

3. Emotional - Feel appreciation for your emotions, all of them. They exist to give you power, consciousness and information about your interactions with the world. Then choose how to manage them and evaluate values.

4. Spiritual - Your soul automatically wants a relationship with God, however or whatever that is to you. Remember God in all things in each moment because a part of you longs for that connection home. Develop a daily spiritual practice, even if it’s just saying thank you to God when you wake up each day.

Think of what you can do for others. Serving others is the root of what every soul on this earth finds to be of value at this time so how can you help? You can serve simply by giving love energy out. No one has to know that you do it. In fact, if you are really loving, and not taking energy, no one should know.

Low Self-esteem

2010-05-13T04:17:00.001-07:00

The darkest demon within writhes unseen through the copious thoughts of self. Not enough. Never enough. Unlovable. Others are more. A constant struggle to move into light, Self takes. Search for others with light from whom to take so Self can find love. So much taking, so little time. Who shall give?

Search for partner love from whom to take. Want someone with humor, to be good enough, to give enough. If other is good and near, then Self is lovable. Low Self-esteem drives need to take.

What to offer? Hmmm. Give? Couldn’t possibly. Self would have to know value to make an offer. What value is Self? Hmmm.

Diversions

2010-05-05T08:13:00.001-07:00

Projected Energy

2010-04-28T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hidden rage, driven to deeper depths, finds its way to expression through other. All are one. What one does not wish to express, other must. Energy moves stealthily among the many like an unseen ghost having its way. Niceness belongs to anger and anger to niceness. Choose passive nice-ity over holding lines and anger seeps into the masses to explode.

Entire cultures value nice and turn heads while buried anger arises elsewhere. Fingers pointed and blame placed, “look at that horrible display of rage! Tsk, tsk!” Black and white, Democrat and Republican, Middle East and Western culture: Which will ascend to top? Balance aloof while perspective remains broken and unwhole.

Positive Process

2010-04-21T08:44:00.001-07:00

All too familiar, the collapse of downbeat events holds tightly to the heart and mind as though nothing good has ever happened. Long held habits of mentality speak over and over of what goes wrong. Dreams come true? Psyche clings hard to the one familiar truth of - no.

Anxiety runs through nerves at a quick and steady pace while mind skips round in chaotic search for the familiar discontent only to find none. What, what, what? Wishes come true? What? The mind denies the unfamiliar righteousness as a safety mechanism. Renovate Self to recognize joy as harmless becomes the new task. Movement from disappointment to fulfillment is barely recognizable, as joyful zest becomes the engine driving positive process until at last – it is the new familiar.

Sovereignty

2010-04-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

Sovereignty:

Deep in the core of Self lies the authority to wrestle down inner demons to cooperative, sedentary status. Costumed in fear, demons render powerless that which is supremely powerful. Self possesses complete power to discern lines that others may not cross, complete authority to value Self regardless of outside opinion. No one at any time has any power to influence a conscious state, unless such power is given.

Give away sovereignty and lose Self to other. Retain authority over Self, alone and no other, to gain freedom and connection within. Willingness to stand for something, to take a strong position and hold it even when it’s hard is to gain Self. The Universe will test on this. Fear and insecurity will thrive as life’s challenging maze is traversed. The way out of the maze? …follow heart, especially when it’s hard.

Eleanor Roosevelt understood sovereignty over Self and used it well. I offer several quotes from her here.
Available: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/e/eleanor_roosevelt.html

• Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
• Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people.
• Friendship with ones self is all-important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world.
• I believe that anyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do, provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experience behind him.
• Never allow a person to tell you no who doesn't have the power to say yes.
• No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
• Remember always that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one.
• We are afraid to care too much for fear that the other person does not care at all.
• We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot.

Mining the Psyche

2010-04-07T10:09:00.000-07:00

Precious gems, gold and silver line the inner reaches of the psyche. Digging deeper into the darkness searching for treasure to pay off the gods and demons, a strike is had and it’s payday. Tears scale cheek as jewels are extracted from the crevasses of karmic wounding. Painful cries resound as fear is seen and reckoned. To what end does this process continue?

Karmic wounds, present as fear, rise to the surface where the light of day shines like a beacon calling forth the demons to be recognized and embraced. Yes, embraced. Like all living things demons want to belong somewhere, want to be welcomed and will fight to the death to be so. Judgment of fear grows it strong and fierce, while tolerance brings it meek and mild. Fear reacts powerfully to fear and like all things, openly to acceptance.

Treasure cached in the psyche as fear is mined until it is dispelled and replaced with loving tolerance and trust. The light of day shines into the deep cracks erasing the effects of wounding in spite of the wound remaining. That one sliver of gold must remain to keep the psyche in check, to force it to remain humbly human.

The Price of Loss

2010-03-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

Loss creeps in and out of life like a stolen shadow. It eats at faith and trust in both tiny bite size morsels and gluttonous chomps. Its ferocity can leave one dangling from a thin tether as it stretches further and tighter until…it breaks. Only when it breaks can reconstruction begin.

Gain becomes the stronghold as new life is born like a mushroom in a recently burned forest. Loss and gain, the two tango back and forth across the dance floor of self as a rose dangles from the mouth of this paradoxical cycle.

What is loss, but gain? Old trees must burn to make room for a new forest generation. Transformational fires rage through self via the mundane, external world. Every loss brings new growth and every gain brings new burdens, without exception. Each has reasons. Loss alludes to loss, but it fakes out the perceiver because loss doesn’t exist. There is only the need to make room for new.

The price of loss is freedom, freedom from that which has become wretchedly worn and used up, but not let go of willingly. Renewed by gain, the cycle continues with vigor until the new becomes old and once again transforms. Nothing is permanent. Nothing.

Certain stagnant death would occur if change did not. Small children cry with an abandon at the want of things to stay the same forever. Adults laugh at the cuteness while having their private tears of transformation. Acceptance of change, and the good fortune it brings, offers security. Insecurity comes with insistence on sameness and wanting.

Vote for Boston

2010-03-30T08:28:00.001-07:00

I need your vote today to become the Next Top Spiritual Author. The book I’m writing uses a fictional story format to explain the mechanics of karma energy. Karma is a tool used by souls to incarnate. There are only four possible patterns of karmic energy, which form your base personality, and one of them belongs to you. Understanding your pattern, and how it works, gives you full power to clear your karma and in turn, a happy, peaceful life. Winning this contest will mean a publishing contract and marketing money to get this information out to those who wish to have it. I very much appreciate your help. Please vote for Boston Carter at http://www.NextTopAuthor.com/?aid=1296 You will need to register to vote as it protects the contest from multiple votes. It is really easy and fast. If you are so inclined, please pass this on to your friends and family to ask for their vote as well. Thank you so much.

Boston Carter

Adversity

2010-03-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

Character is like a tree that bows in a mighty wind as it gains strength through it’s own resistance to adverse conditions. Life brings winds of change upon even the most innocent, not as a test or punishment, but as a building block in the very foundation of a soul. Current times are challenging and it is good. New foundations are being created through shifts and change as new energies align in the heavens bringing forth an era of sharing and equality.

An outdated system is breathing its last breath as it aches with its own demise. A cash cow that promised inequality and powerlessness gives way to an unknown scheme yet to be envisioned. Collapse of a monetary nothing promises a new… something. Thrive in the chaos of creation as the winds of change blow hard and tumultuous through the now times of transformation. Those who are bankrupt contribute to our new humanity; hopefully with a grin of understanding, while the bankers bite their nails with anxiety of a world they are losing control of and can’t understand.

Adverse times build strength and character like a mighty tree in high winds. Go forth knowing that all is grand and on purpose. Nothing is lost. Destruction before construction: No foundation can be built any other way.

Contest

2010-03-20T17:18:00.001-07:00

Hello,

I’m Boston Carter, a medical intuitive, karma specialist and general psychic. Before you delete this message, please know that I’m not selling anything.
I’ve developed a model that explains how karma energies create personality during the incarnation process. Personality occurs through patterns of perception. What I mean is that there are specific patterns that people view life events through, and the pattern that is yours will create how you feel, how you interact with others, how you think and essentially what kinds of experiences you will have in your life.
There are only four basic patterns, only four, and one of them belongs to you. It is my highest wish to share this information with the hope that it helps you understand yourself and your relationships with others. To that end I am writing two books. The first is a fictional story that will explain what the patterns are and how they work. The second is a non-fiction workbook that is designed to help you see all the ways in which your pattern shows up in your life and how to work with it to clear karmic energies.
I am currently in a learning process through the avenue of a contest. The contest is called The Next Top Spiritual Author. This contest is the American Idol of spiritual writing. The winner will receive a publishing contract and $50,000 for marketing the project. Going through the process of competition is teaching me invaluable lessons about marketing, with which I have always struggled. I’ve never liked the marketing side of writing, but it is an essential aspect to getting my information out to you who can benefit from it. So I am willing to learn.
The contest allows for only one book so I am entering the fictional story and it is called “Grace, Karma and Sin: A Story of Clearing Karma”. In order to win the contest and subsequently to get this information out to you, I need votes. I am asking everyone I know to go the contest website, look at my project as it unfolds and vote for me at each of the four rounds. If you like my work, please pass it on to everyone that you know and ask them to vote too. There are about 2000 participants and only one winner.
The contest will occur over an 8-month period of time. The first round will be a video sales pitch. It is designed to sell my book project to the general population and the publisher. Round two will be the book proposal. Round three will be the first two chapters of my book project and round four will be the completed book. (My fingers are crossed right now.)
I am not selling you anything and no one else will sell you anything. I just need your vote. Following are some links that will allow you to connect with me so I can let you know when it’s time to vote and how to do that. The contest begins March 29th and I look forward to this process. Thank you so much for your time, consideration and your vote.
If you would like to take a further look at what I do, you can read some blogs I’ve posted at http://nowageknowledge.blogspot.com/ and go to my website to read some free articles, watch videos and look at a schematic of the model of perception patterns at http://www.nowageknowledge.com/

Boston Carter
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Self-esteem

2010-03-16T22:27:00.000-07:00

Those who are confident shine like a beacon and draw many like a magnet. Self-esteem percolates with zest and oozes from the pores of the phlegmatic.

Frightened by comparisons to other, confidence reshapes into timidity. The eye sees other as mighty and sturdy oak while viewing self as spindly, weak bamboo. The oak is hard and has beautiful lines of grain when polished, while bamboo’s softness splits easily and offers flexibility of movement. Both are beautiful and righteous for their purpose yet comparatively unequal.

The world would be less for the loss of either tree and the world would be less for the loss of any talent, thought, person or contribution. Confidence eludes as comparison competes bamboo with oak. Oak is good by itself. It has many roots that go a distance to hold the earth in place and offers grand shade on a hot day. Bamboo is good when grouped. It offers wind protection, and flexibility of movement, as it’s long trunks sway on the breeze.

The plight of people is to be both oaks and bamboos, sturdy when alone and flexible in groups. Shape shifting back and forth between the two can bring timidity through the power structures of superiority and inferiority.

What would oak trees do in groups? Would they still be oaks or would they compare their bark and leaves to other oaks? Do they remain sturdy and strong or become mushy with self-doubt?

Resistance and Receptivity

2010-03-10T07:45:00.000-08:00

Resistance and receptivity: eternal archenemies in a relentless tug-of-war for the prize of supremacy. One cannot exist without the other yet both flutter about seeking a place to land. A useful tool for disregard, resistance follows like a shadowy figure constantly ducking in and out of psyche’s doorways. It persists with a tenacity that Taurus would be proud of as it pushes away everything regardless of value.

Then comes its opponent, receptivity, with a toothy grin and a come hither look. ‘I am open’, it shouts. ‘Come to me, I welcome you. I can see you and I can hear you. I have all that you long for within.’ Receptivity welcomes all, but only if a toll is paid. The price for passage is vulnerability.

Resistance has its place and feels very much at home with its dear friend, guardedness. Receptivity only feels at home with vulnerability. Two tag teams of energy driving down the toll road of destiny as each pushes and pulls on the wheel. Come here fate and take me to my shrine of happiness, but go away providence and keep me from that which I most fear.
Push, pull, tug and tweak in continual search for the center between these teamed enemies. Subjective midpoint persistently moves and changes as it eludes its seeker who incessantly hunts its prey.

The Unknown

2010-03-03T08:54:00.001-08:00

The known future slithers along just out of visual range. No matter how much it is chased, it is always faster than the chaser. It never tires of toying as it covertly moves through the thick underbrush of dread. The dreaded unknown rises to be seen clothed in religion and fear as explanations and information are sought to stop the chaos of a seeking mind that has nothing solid to seize.
Current times are bulging with the unknown, so much that many are ready to detonate. Clearing meadows of change and transformation tease as the wriggling beast is sighted. Then, it’s back in the underbrush again. What hides under the bushes? Is there a tall, sheer cliff from which to tumble, or is there a mountain of wishes and dreams treasure waiting to be scooped up and hunkered away under coat?
Back room trust evades as it ekes in and out of reality. Trust, the notion that sets aside fear of that which cannot be controlled. Trust: not for the timid or weak of mind, but only for those willing to risk it’s inclusion and occupation of sanity.

The following are quotes that include the word unknown and are available through thinkexist.com.

“History does not record anywhere at any time a religion that has any rational basis. Religion is a crutch for people not strong enough to stand up to the unknown without help.” Robert Heinlein.

“Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown.” Unknown. :D

“The more everybody lives, the more life reveals to him; what was unknown becomes known.” Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy.

Abortion and Sin

2010-02-24T07:59:00.000-08:00

Today’s blog was originally going to be on the topic of sin. Someone pointed out to me the following blog post on abortion as viewed through the eyes of a Virginia Republican State Delegate, Bob Marshall. I take this opportunity to express my beliefs about abortion so I decided that abortion and sin can sit side by side in today’s blog and will likely do fine. The two topics are written separately, but I think it will work out. As always feel free to comment and share your opinions.
The following was posted to a Seattle PI blog on Feb. 22, 2010 by Joel Connelly and can be found at this link:
http://blog.seattlepi.com/seattlepolitics/archives/195392.asp?source=mypi

Disabled children -- God's punishment, lawmaker claims
Disabled children are the Lord's punishment for women who "abort the first born," a Republican state legislator from Virginia has argued in calling on state officials to eliminate state money going to Planned Parenthood. State Delegate Bob Marshall, from the Washington, D.C., suburb of Manassas, told Planned Parenthood foes: The number of children who are born subsequent to a first abortion with handicaps has increased dramatically. Why? Because when you abort the first born of any, nature takes its vengeance on the subsequent children. In the Old Testament, the first born of every being, animal and man, was dedicated to the Lord. There's a special punishment Christians would suggest.

The News-Leader newspaper reported that about 20 people, "mostly Christian pastors and clergy" heard Marshall's remarks at the General Assembly Building in Richmond.

The petition to cease Planned Parenthood funding was signed by prominent religious right leaders including the Rev. Pat Robertson and the Rev. Jonathan Falwell. Gov. Bob McDonnell, a Republican elected last November, has publicly backed calls to cut off money to Planned Parenthood.

At the gathering, Dean Nelson, executive director of the Network of Politically Active Christians, said: "We are gathered to draw attention to the unethical, immoral and racist practices of the largest abortion provider in America."

A tricky notion to wrap my values around, abortion calls out all my wits. I do not believe in killing, yet I do believe abortion is a woman’s right and I feel no judgment for her doing so. How is it that I can justify these two seemingly paradoxical ideas? I look beyond the physical form and I fall back on what I know or can find out for myself. Is it killing to abort a fetus? Since I have a value that says I don’t kill, that becomes a very important question. What I know as an intuitive practitioner is that during the incarnation process, an entity will go in and out of the newly created physical body, but won’t stay permanently until about the seventh month. That’s been my experience and that process may not always be the same for every being coming into the earth plane. In reality, I don’t think it matters when a soul occupies a body because I also know that if a fetus is aborted, the soul set to occupy it will find another way to come back and often enter another fetus of the same mother later on. No wrong is being done to the incarnating entity.

What does matter is how the pregnant woman feels about it. It is the same with someone who takes a life at any point. If you kill something or someone and your values say that is wrong, then you create karmic energy for yourself. Your actions and values either match or they don’t. When they don’t, sin is created (see following piece on sin).

The entity incarnating experiences the same thing if a miscarriage occurs. There is no difference between miscarriage and abortion as far as the incarnating entity is concerned. Their main concern is timing. For them, entering the earth plane at the best time is most important. We all choose to come in when astrological alignments (magnetic radiations) are best suited to create the personality we need for our purpose. Abortion can interfere with that timing, but other plans can, and are, made.
In my opinion, abortion itself is not sinful, but rather it creates ill timing for those entities incarnating and can create karma for the woman having the abortion if her values say it’s wrong. On the other hand, if everyone felt ok about abortions to the point that entities could no longer incarnate with right timing, I suspect the Universe would do something to change our belief system so our process as humans could continue. I’m not sure about that or what could be done, but that isn’t for me to know.

Sin. I sin on a daily basis as I struggle to maintain my sense of values and inner calm. I thank Edgar Cayce for his definition of sin, the misuse of divine source. It helps me to make sense of sin and how it sends me to hell. New Age thought tells me that sin doesn’t exist yet I see hell all around me. I see heaven all around me too. Hell on earth or heaven on earth. Which shall it be? Do I contribute to one or the other? Yes.

I strive to capture heaven both outside of me and inside of me, but at times it is as elusive as a lynx in the woods. It jumps wildly from here to there and back again moving with lightening speed and stealthy silence.

Sin dwells within me too, creating my own dark and stifling hell as I cower in the corner of uncertainty. To fear the unknown future, or to see the future as a past wrong done to me, begets wrongs and hell. Whether it’s fear of rage and anger as I spout my truth, or guileful wrath as I take a stand, I build my own hell and since energy projects out and affects you, I help to construct your hell also.

Sinful fear. It binds my spirit if I care what you think of me. It imprisons me if I can’t stand to be alone. It crushes me if I take better care of you than me. It ruins me if I allow it to take over the values and beliefs that define my Self.

Self: the ultimate heaven since God and I are the same. How can Self be heavenly if I fill Self with sinful fear? Self being Source Divine, how can I like me if I can’t follow my own philosophies and truths? I can’t. Heaven eludes as I cower. Hell persists through my fearful perceptions. Heaven exists softly within my ability to see life events as righteous. All events have a positive side. There is no exception to that. My belief in that truth is the very thing that allows me to possess heaven if I so choose. On earth as it is in heaven.

Boston Carter is a mystic, medical intuitive, karma specialist and relationship specialist as well as author, teacher and general psychic. Her website is http://nowageknowledge.com.

Connection and Separation

2010-02-17T05:22:00.000-08:00

Connection. How do I stay connected and what does that mean? I sometimes feel like a giant wedge of vulnerability is driving my choices. I want to be an openhearted and kind person all the time, but I’m not. Many times my desire to control rears its head like a lion roars after its prey. If I control everything around me I can feel safe, but safe does not bring connection. Safe drives the wedge of separation deeper creating a crevasse of vulnerability in my mountainous desire to belong.
An endless cycle of wishes and dreams dashed in a single, reactive moment of safety that leaves me and others stymied. Control means to win. Control means to be in charge. Control means to separate, and that can be very purposeful. Connection? What does that look like and how does it serve me?
What I think of as safe brings separation. To what degree do I really feel safe if I'm separate from all those who matter to me? Connection to those I love is what makes me really feel safe. How do I do that? If I want to connect to you, I must be willing to risk. I tend to ask the question “can you hold me and my fragile self-esteem safe enough to connect to you”. The question I should be asking is “am I capable of holding my own fragile self-esteem and making it not so fragile”.
I connect to you now by telling you of these two opposing forces of connection and separation within me. I speak my truth. I am not as connective as I want to be. Truth: a confession of inner wellness that brings relief and lifts the burden and weight of safety and separation. Welcome to my inner self.

Real Power

2010-02-09T16:34:00.000-08:00

As a person who has felt powerful most of my life I long to empower you who might feel powerless. Although I’ve mostly felt powerful, I haven’t always been powerful. I have cradled the illusion of power like a protective mother and I have held the breath of real power in my chest as it nurses passion for life. My travels through the mists of power have led me from a narrow, tunneled view to an open expanse of optimism.

Real power is an elusive and cunning creature. She moves lightening fast as she ekes in and out of consciousness. She thrives in stealthy silence and lonely humility. Real power does not shout from the rooftops nor slam her fist in a loud bullying obsession to control. She does not sit still with a white knuckled grip on circumstances. She does stand tall with eyes straight ahead and arms open wide. She does find you through your truth, ethics and integrity.

A mystical force, power is yours for the cooperating, not for the taking. She can only be with you if you are ripe to hold her within your giant hand of self-esteem. She will not bear with your arrogance, but only with your confidence. She will not flow with your actionable habits that are misaligned with your morals and ideals. Power dwells within a house that is built on congruent behaviors and values, actions and beliefs. Power knows its name is Self and claims itself within the center of your being where neutrality lives.

Having no enemies, power sits at the same table with anyone who asks. She is always available to you and she is always seeking the next moment to serve. Your truth, philosophy, values and beliefs determine where power lives and thrives. She is yours as long as you don’t try to capture her. She is loving as long as you don’t push her away. She will find you only if Self is valued by you. Value of Self becomes power when your beliefs and values flourish in congruent actions and behaviors, both inside your mind and in the outside world.

NowAgeKnowledge.com

2009-09-21T17:03:00.000-07:00

Has anyone noticed the transformational energies going on lately? Since a couple of weeks prior to 9-9-9 day, I felt a death-like energy, which I interpret as transformation. I've certainly had a run of transformational circumstances to go with it. Things are moving and changing. The things that are changing may be uncomfortable in some ways, but they are all good. I am excited to see these energies coming in. I, and many others I know, have been asking for change. Well it's here. I remind myself of this as I think negatively of the process. I don't like the process of change but the changes themselves are great. What do you think?

2009-07-30T12:41:00.000-07:00

How do you apply the perspective of gains rather than losses to your life? Refer to article on my website Gains and Losses.

http://www.nowageknowledge.com/freearticles.html

Judgment

2009-07-27T16:38:00.001-07:00

I recently find myself dealing with judgment of others. Not something that is usual for me so this is surprising. My judgments are about a taboo subject and I've had to look at my fears about that and my beliefs about it. I wonder what some of your experiences are. You can speak in general terms or very specific terms...as you wish.

2009-07-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

Do you have past life memories and if so, how do you know?

What do you think it takes to be a light filled being?

2009-07-24T10:51:00.000-07:00