Envy

A green monster creeps into thoughts as attention is focused on another’s achievement or possession. It stomps in loud and uproarious boasting of what is had. It stands tall on its hind legs looking intimidating as it shouts out ‘I am better than you’ and self perceives attack. How to fight a monster so much bigger than self?

Thoughts and feelings power to full throttle as self detaches from other’s seeming successes. Attention shifts back to self’s path and life. self’s path is good too, just different. Green monster has nothing on self with inner independence. This is what binds Self and self together.

Waiting

Life creeps along more slowly than desire for movement. Transition to another step in journey’s purpose leaves wanting for more…now. Conscious self wants control, wants progress, wants, wants, wants like small child expressing tantrums of yearning.

Striving to complete journey brings stoppages, one after another. Let go screams higher self. Let us see what’s next. Let us run things from where we can see the future. Allow self to relax; enjoy a break in between tasks. No movement now sees busy-ness in near future. Eliminate struggle, wait for planets to align with your mission; wait for right timing. Wait.

Introspection:
When confusion and directionless mind-set in, wait with patience, understanding and knowing that all is well and in right timing: trust.

Today, I look for solace and peace as I release all that occupies my mind. Today there will be no work. Today, I am holding space for myself to wander aimlessly through the deep crevasses of my being while at the same time floating through as an observer. Today is meant as a present moment when nothing happens at all. Today is my birthday; an opportunity to give myself permission to let go of all that is and isn't.

I think this means that I go shopping for art supplies and do whatever I want. :)

Success

Stalking cash in endless effort for more, yet it eludes. Success lives as energy. Consciousness motor pushes success in vehicle of self-confidence. Knowing who you are and for what you stand. Stand in knowledge with heaviest gravity. Value what is offered other and trust self to say what limits are.

Introspection: Success is an energy archetype, and as such cannot be measured by money. Measuring by money will push it away. Instead see success as feeling confident. Know what matters to you and how you value that. Know what you want to give to the world and value it. Money follows value. One part of valuing self is to trust self. In our culture, we tend to want to present ourselves in a neat and perfect package. But you will always know that you are covering and that is something you will not trust. You must trust yourself and to do that you must be willing to say what your limits are. That is what’s real and true.