Discontent

Lurking, impatient heaviness lingers like thick fog as it writhes with loathing in wait, wait. ‘Take this from me’, it screams. Bring something, anything that reeks of success, of movement, of satisfaction for now. What is it? Unknown, but bring it.
Disgruntlement driven awry through vehicle of faith, of certainty, of right timing. Conjure faith through portal of release. Become prey rather than predator and let go of outcome. Let go of desire. As prey, desire no longer lives.

Introspection:

Discontent with what is happening now brings misery. To know outcome is always desired and rarely obtained so to let go of need to understand God’s intent brings peace. Letting go is what prey does when it sees a predator has it in its grip.

Source and scarcity

The sword of fire reigns, knighting with two paradoxical forces: scarcity and resourcefulness. Blade cuts path of new thought as understanding pervades mind. Scarcity is in mind, not real. Not real. Source lies within and takes form of giving. What gift is offered brings resources. Aid another to be successful. Offer another what is longed for self and prosperity rules. Then blade swings to re-knight as great leader (warrior) and resourcefulness rules mind.

Diversions

Notice a longing to do anything else when faced with the opportunity to do what is loved. What is loved is heart singing and soul fulfilling of passion. Passion is personal power rising from the depths of unconsciousness to be shone upon from the highest high. What fear lies in fulfilling passion? Accessing personal power terrifies like riding in a plane falling to ground uncontrolled. So unworthy to accomplish God’s will that sought instead is another task. Any task will do.

Trust God? Yes. Trust self? No. How to accept personal power to accomplish God’s will / self-passion? Detach from outcome. Detach from idea of Self in charge of path. Detach from all decision making. Trust God to know all means and ways. Trust self not to know how, when, why or what, but to stay out of the way and listen. Listen and follow heart. God will do the rest.

Breakthrough

With world on shoulders, muscles ache from step after step of mountainous climb. See the top, up there, just out of reach. Wait! Want to go down. Wait again! Can’t turn around. Would roll and tumble and be crushed by the globe. Must continue forward with step after step. Faith hangs on. When peak is grasped, breakthrough sings the dawn.

Introspection:

Life can seem like an uphill climb full of responsibility and obligation. Life becomes joyful when peaks are reached and the burden put down to roll it’s own way, leaving you to glide on the kite your higher self packed for your journey; the one you didn’t know you had.

Conviction

Boulder worn smooth stands propped on precipice by surrounding smaller stones. Stones’ idea becomes boulder’s. Thunderous clap and lightening strike crack boulder sending it down cliff to rest as jagged rock. No longer propped by stones, rock remains strong, hard and true to self with nowhere to fall.

Introspection:

Conviction of beliefs is easy when others agree. Real conviction comes when beliefs fall outside the majority and self stands certain anyway.